catching bubbles

Today I am not so deep. I feel like I'm floating over everything, disconnected.

I have been . . . kind of happy today.

I woke with a slight hangover - yeah mom of the year, right? Now I understand how women have done "it" for years and years and years. When I say "it" I mean life. They drank. Seriously.

I got deliriously drunk last night. I think I haven't drank that much since college.
I don't want to talk about that though.

I want to talk about the peace I seem to have today. It's like an effervescent feeling that I don't think I've had in a long long time. A calmness.

This feeling reminds me of bubbles. When I try to grab it and hold on to it, it eludes me. When I lay back and relax - I feel that peace and joy for life begin to saturate me.

I just have to let it happen.